Infertility is the hardest thing I’ve ever faced. It hurts day after day. You go through phases where you try to convince yourself you don’t want children, but you know it’s not ever true. Seven years my husband and I tried to conceive. Finally, in March 2014 we went to a fertility doctor. I think part of us wanted to be clinical about it, after all seven years of negative tests will make one doubtful. We found out the reason we had never gotten pregnant was due to my not ovulating. I’m thankful that I wasn’t. God kept me from having any children with the wrong man. As I’ve always heard and knew in my heart, it’s all in God’s perfect timing. Hard to say those words when you are on your 800th negative pregnancy test, crying or angry. Hurt in a way words will never truly capture.
The doctor we chose was at random and he was perfect. Meeting him even felt good. He did a pelvic exam to make sure there were not any physical problems then scheduled a blood test to find out if I was ovulating. As it turns out, I wasn’t. The doc put me on a medication called clomid to help force my body to release eggs. I was to take them for five days then on the 21st day of my cycle go in and see if it had worked.
Waiting those days were killer. Turned out my day 21 was on a Sunday so I was certain they wouldn’t be able to tell. They were, thank God, and the even bigger blessing was that the medication had worked! I was ovulating.
Suddenly the ability to get pregnant was in front of us, which is oddly scary. Having wanted it for so long, we suddenly realized that we may not be ready. LOL. Funny how that works. So, we decide to wait a few months. “Get out some of the old eggs” my husband so eloquently joked. I cried, I didn’t want to wait but I knew that it was best. Again, God’s perfect timing.
So, the plan was in two months to start trying. Here’s hoping nothing else is wrong!
As it turns out, God’s perfect timing is in all things. I was saving this post so that I could do a few and do a weekly series. Shockingly enough, God had another plan. We are excited to announce that we are expecting in January. For all those years of not being blessed with a baby, we are suddenly a little nervous. LOL. Mostly, though, incredibly thankful and overly excited!