I have no idea why we, as human beings, ever go against our natural instincts. Animals don’t. Ever. That’s why they say animals can sense evil. It’s not that they sense evil, they just trust their own instincts. They don’t fill their heads with worry and concern over whether or not it’s the right decision, they just listen to what God tells them through their instincts.
I made the mistake of going against my natural instinct because my heart was screaming to do so. I knew better, I have since done better. Last night my instincts were confirmed for an event that took place a while back. The wound of betrayed trust hurts even now. I’m hurt and angry, and somehow not quite as surprised. I wish I could say otherwise.
The kids like to say ‘epic fail’. I hear it all the time out of their little heads. So, in the interest of irony, my heart’s judgement was an epic fail.
Yesterday I didn’t post, I don’t have much of an excuse. I just didn’t do it. Today I’m venting. Perhaps tomorrow will be normal again.